Monday, October 27, 2008

It's 2am -- Crisis!!!

"A despairing man should have the devotion of his friends...." Job 6:14a(NIV) Lately, I have been going through a period of reflection. During this time, I poised the question to myself that my pastor asked the congregation last week -- Who are MY 2am friends? You know - those friends you can call at 2am no matter what and they will be there for you in a minute. As I went through my list of friends, I realized that my 2am list is pretty short -- really only about 3 folks and that is a with a real apologetic - "Sorry to bother you but...." I am sure several of my friends are saying "you better say you were thinking of me because you know I would be there in a heart beat." My problem is that I am one of those folks who absolutely abhors asking anyone for anything, especially help. This goes back to my previous post and the confessions of said control freak. I like to be the one who will be there at 2am but I don't expect anyone else to be there. I mean, I attempt to schedule my meltdowns between the hours of 9am and 10pm, 11pm on a rough night. As much I would like to say that is true -- it's not. In reality, I find that it is in the early morning hours that I wake to deal with whatever drama that is unfolding in my life. I guess it comes down to not just being a friend but letting others be a friend in return. If I don't ask then how will they know I need them? If I don't talk about my life and my problems with my friends, then how can they pray for me? If I don't share in the drama and the triumphs, won't they have a skewed view of me as a person. God put us on this earth to need one another. He said in Genesis that it is not good for man (or woman) to be alone.(Gen 2:18) After He had created the animals and all "things" that a person could need, He then saved the best for last. -- No, not merely woman, but a companion, a friend and someone to share in the joys and pitfalls. Boy, we could spend a long time talking about their particular journey but for the purposes of my rant -- it must have been nice not to have to go through all that alone. I am sure that if I asked and would put myself out there -- there would be more than 3 folks on my list that I could call at 2am. I realize that I need to make myself more vulnerable and not make everyone think my life is SOOO together because it is in no way, shape or fashion the case. I struggle just like most of you do. So, watch out -- you may be getting a call the next time I can't sleep at 2am. Dear Lord -- Please give me the courage to be transparent with my friends and ask for help versus trying to go it alone. I pray that you help me to be the kind of friend that others seek to be a companion, a source of comfort and a confidante for all of life's journeys. I thank you for my friends and pray a special blessing on each of them. In the name of Jesus - AMEN Application:

  • Who are your 2am friends?
  • If you don't have any or just a few -- why is your list not longer?
  • If your list is long, are you a 2am friend to others?
  • Pray for the Lord to open your heart to be more available and vulnerable to those around you.


In His Hands... said...

Paula - I think you and I must be somehow related. I often read your posts and feel like I could be writing it myself. This is something I have been working on too as has Josh. We always try to be the ones comforting our friends or family and are learning to let them inside our hearts more, let them know when we are sad or simply that we are not "perfect". Luckily during this sermon I was sitting next to one of those 2 am friends who I adore and who I ironically have let be my comfort as well. I love the new series at FFC. Each week the message has been forcing me to really look deep inside myself more than I ever have before. Anyway, thanks for yet another great post! Love ya' sista! Smooches!!!

Sharon's Faith Dance said...

I think Pastor's 2am friend question prompted a lot of discussion and introflection. I was personally tremendously blessed with cards and notes from my friends, some quite unexpecteded but what struck me about the whole thing was that all of them attend FishHawk and happened to be there that day. Thanks for sharing your insight and Trish and I both thought of you with the whole 2am thing because you have such a hard time sleeping at night. Don't call us though unless it is an emergency because we need our beauty sleep. :o)

Meridith said...

I just found your blog on the LWG blogroll.... great blog... off to read more.... (((hugs)))